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Name: Tina
Country: United States
State: Florida
Metro: Tampa Bay Area
Birthday: 7/10/1987
Gender: Female
Interests: I love to read a good book ..( again I know it shows my nerdy side!) I love music any kind of music rock rap country jazz classical...the vines..hehe...
Occupation: Student
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AIM:  relionchucks00
Member Since:
1/31/2005
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| I wonder if I will end up working in a church??
I feel called to be a youth pastor with all my heart but who says that I need to work within church walls? At least established church. I find myself disillusioned. You see, I have had the privilege of seeing what lies behind traditional leadership and in some cases I wonder if those leaders are not hypocritical? This is not in regards to any specific leader or church, in fact, I have seen bad things in many churches. Perhaps, leaders who are insecure. Perhaps, unwilling to change. Stuck in tradition. Deceived by wrong mentalities. I do not know. Yet, I look within myself..and see an uninvited guest. Bitterness. A companion whom I thought I had left behind. I am HEALED..am I not?? Yet, In those rare glimpses I see it. still there. returning. and it chokes the new life..attempting to breakthrough. It is accompanied by the ever chiding Apathy..the apathy that says do not listen. do not learn. do not conquer. do not care. but I want to Care. So here is where my dilemma lies. I see wrong. I see injustice. I hurt. Yet I am in the wrong. I am hurt. I have been told that Anointing comes from authority. I believe it as well. Yet it is hard to submit to an authority when you hear them preach one thing and live a different way. Am I talking major sin here? No. I am not. I speak of Ignorance, Blindness. How do I grow spiritually.? How can I recieve those words?? I cannot change what I see. I can change myself. For Greater is He that is in me than he that in the world. When I am weak, Lord, You are my strength. Lord,you said that when I speak in Faith Mountains Melt like wax. I speak to my mountains they shall move. I am more than a conqueror. Bitterness and Apathy have not place in my life. Lord, allow me to grow in wisdom so that I can understand your purpose for me better. I will continually work in changing malicious behavior in my life because I want to be hungry for the nourishment of God's word. Faith will be my shield. I will act upon my faith. I will do it with Joy. I bless you Lord. I will Bless you. I will bless you.
I feel parched. I am expecting something great ...
whenever that is.
Perhaps, I can from a youth center. still have a youth ministry. maybe not in a church. maybe connect it with a counseling center.
I pray that the Lord would protect the hearts of a generation rising. Let them not feel the pangs of being hurt by church. Let them not see those fallacies that are grow through tradition and religion. Let the know the heart of God. Let them find a place in the body of christ that heals their hearts. Let them no longer feel abandoned but welcome. Let them be kingdom minded.
I thank you for Matthew 6...where you promise me Lord that you care for my every single need. Let me remain focused on what you want me to accomplish.
I thank in Psalm 27 it says you care for every detail of my life.
I thank you that in Jeremiah 29 11 it says you will prosper me when I follow your plans.
I thank you that you continue to say in vs 12 that I will find you when I seek you.
I thank that you never leave me nor forsake me. You are here now. All the time. You are here for me. Even if your presence is not tangible.
I choose life. My words are life. What I put in my spirit will be life. so that my heart can be a wellspring of life. Let my words be of encouragement. Let them be of compassion.
Continue to heal me. Heal my cracks. Let your spring well up within my desert. Use Me God.
I thank you that I can know you. What a privilege to know you God. I am honored.
Be Blessed with my life.
I thank you that I am favored.
I love you.
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| Romans 14:1 "Accept christians who are weak in faith, and don't argue with them about what is right and what is wrong." NLT I propose it is our job to gently guide others (maybe people who aren't christians or those just starting out in faith) in the right direction. I have talked with many people..and the fact is ..people do not change their minds. Arguing is ignorance in such cases. We live our lives in fullness and joy through Christ ..others will follow. Do we ignore them ..NO. We love them. No matter who they are, where they have been, or what they have done. Their hearts must be changed first. I remember a time where I lived in ignorance. With my religious ways. I remember my time of brokeness. Blaming the church as hypocrites. Now I look inside me ..putting aside all the rights rules and regulations..but leaning on God as He is continually working inside me . Changing my heart ..day by day. replacing bitterness and selfish ambition with humility and joy. I step out in faith vanquishing fear. I have nothing to fear through Christ Jesus. I no longer need a crutch. I can walk. I can stand. I can run full throttle into the magnificent plans God has laid before me. A purpose all my own. My desire..to serve my Savior. His love has found me..no. I have found His love..it was sitting there inside me waiting to be unlocked. How could I have ignored it so long. Goodbye to this shell of me for the Spirit of God has been unleashed inside of me. In my weakness He is my Strength. His abilities laid upon my meager abilites. I can accomplish anything. .... I don't have time to argue about ideals that do not change. There are more important things at hand. Hearts ..that God so desires to change. How could I ? How Dare I? ..Keep my Jesus to myself.. my transformer..my deliverer..my comforter.. I cannot. They need to know. Let us Guide them . | | |
| hmmm... lately I have just felt overwhelmed. I don't want to feel that way anymore. For me I guess it is hard because I don't feel like I have the right to complain ...there are people with much bigger situations than with what I am dealing with or will probably ever have to deal with ... ..In my mind I see this bigger better version of me..someone with a lot more potential than what I allow myself to have. (Does that even make sense.) I am trying to find my way to becoming that person but I am having a hard time finding that first step. Do I think there is a problem with where I am right now? No..not really ..but I guess what it comes down too..it when you have seen the greater why settle for less..? When I talk about changing myself ..I mean changing all the parts of me ..I want to have more wisdom, experience new things, take hold of that more optimistic outlook, raise my standards, take responsiblity of every part of my life..and more important realize that I need to grow ..and make the changes to allow that growth. I guess we are able to change these things that keep us a little unsettled ..but for me I know I need to be ok with being uncomfortable. I have realized..this life is not all there is..so why should I settle..why should I settle for average ..for an average future for an average now..I won't accept it. ..I want to just let God take control ..and continue to root out those things that don 't belong anymore..so he can replace them with new and unexpected things. ..Just some random thoughts..I guess | | |
| I AM 19 TODAY!!!!!
"From what we get, we can make a living what we give, however, makes a life." ~Arthur Ashe~ ( He was born on July 10th too) !! | | |
| Stretching is hard. Sometimes you forget the whole reason you are even being stretched is because God is trying to get the best out of you. I often forget that I am being stretched until I look back and finally see how far I have come. I feel the stretching but I forget I am being stretched. make sense? Don't get me wrong I am in no way complaining here. I have asked God to use me and that is what I want more than anything. I am sure that we all know that I am nothing special, I have no special talents really, but I also hope people know I am mostly ok with that. I feel as though I know God's purpose in my life.. and that makes me feel amazing. I have a definite peace that even though I may never be great to anyone here on this earth I am great in my Father's eyes. God created me to be me ..and I wouldn't be ok if I were anyone else. I have lately even found a tidbit of joy at my faults...when they stand out so clearly I can begin to change them with the help if God's grace. I think my biggest frustration as of lately is seeing christians who always seem discouraged who make little things into catastrophes and it seems as though the weight of the world is resting on thier very shoulders. I want them to understand that in christ we are free of that weight ..Our mindset needs to change. We are so consumed with our day to day issues and trials ..and I understand some of them really are serious things in our lives ..but God promises he will take care of us..when are going to begin to focus on his kingdom and his will..when we begin to do that everything else falls into place. When we surrender our cares and worries and stresses and for me the biggest one doubts..He takes in his arms and pours out his blessing into our lives. You begin to feel His love radiate within your life ..even when you are surrounded by bleak situations. You see God may not answer things in the appearances ..Life happens ..we are still on earth..but he gives His eternal peace and His Unending grace to deal with them..How great is that. I mean how long have crippled myself because I doubted that what God was speaking into my life was real..Why keep waiting on some amazing future..when God has amazing things for us..specific callings for us even now. The future will come ..but instead of focusing on it too much remember that God has specific calling and destinies set before you this instant. I want live my life with purpose ..even if no one else notices..even if those destinies seem small..they are huge to God..there is a great fufillment even in the smallest things. I love them. All the sudden my future.."independent" life doesn't look so scary. | | |
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